Well I’m just waiting in the airport for my flight home now
o ^ o
Hhn it was still really great to be with Jude despite her mom being there watching us closely haha
Ahh I’m gonna miss you
And I also hope you’re okay atm o n o
Anonymous said: beats are terrible, so i can kinda see where the guy comes from. still, he went about it in a bad way lmao. seriously though, you can get sony mdr-v6 for $60-100 depending where you shop and they have been radio/recording industry standard since the 80s. sounds way better than beats. and yeah if you aren't a headphone elitist you couldn't care less about neato headphones, but paying $300 for subpar fashion accessories is something that could've been avoided, and i guess he's pissed at that fsr
We kinda guessed it was something like this haha
The headphones were actually a gift from Jude’s sister to her so lD I think the anon might be directing their pissyness to the wrong person pfft
And also nonetheless I’m just ??? Someone wasted their money on an over-glorified product , this makes someone angry
I’m like ????
there’s loads of “bad choices” made all the time, not the end of the world nor is it offending anyone’s existence in any way
Someone wants to go blow a shit ton of money on headphones? Well if it makes them happy, sure! It shouldn’t affect you in any way, why on earth are you bothered
I don’t know, maybe some people are just way more inclined to share opinions than I am.
And what’s worse is that they’re anon. They don’t want to take the time to actually have a conversation with Jude to share their reason for why they think it’s a bad choice, to debate if they must, nor do they want to take claim/responsibility for what they say. They rather just drop an easy anon there and never get back.
I just think. If you’re not willing to spend some time talking and sharing your own thoughts and reasons for an opinion or whatever, to own up to your words, then fucking don’t go out of your way to say it to someone. especially something so unimportant as fricking headphones jesus. Maybe if it was like bad animal treatment or unintentional abuse to someone else, I be like oh shit, call that stuff out, it’s okay if yer anon too, but wow it’s basically just “I don’t like what you buy/ how you use your money”. How petty can this even get.
It’s probably even more ridiculous for getting upset, but Jude is someone who can’t overlook even the smallest of things, her brain just naturally does that, she’s a perfectionist (and also to mention, aspergers too) and these comments do affect her cause it makes her think about if she did anything wrong (which is no), if she offended anyone (again no), so she logically knows she didn’t do anything yet she feels she did because of that comment and then just the curiosity to talk to said person to know why they said that, etc.
It causes her to get anxious and stressed. She had to go take some fricking stomache meds last night, and then I had rubbed her stomache to soothe it even further.
So Christ, next time someone wants to just share a negative opinion or something, then give reasoning, be prepared to continue conversation at least if you still prefer to be anonymous.
Just please don’t give Jude further stress, especially while she’s living with her awful mom who already gives her enough depression as is.
Also, Jude is one of the most level headed people I know, she won’t ever flame you or get angry at you, so I don’t think there’s any need to be anon actually, and if you prefer she’ll respond privately too. So gosh danget, stop triggering her anxiety and be civil and just talk. Please
Sorry that ended up being a rant, but oh well it doubles as a PSA
Anonymous said: >beats >music sounding good. ech. I'm sorry but what a terrible statement.
Wait mine or yours cause yours is kind of all over the place I’m like are you trying to say that my grammar was off or that beats headphones are bad or that the saying ‘has never been so good’ is terrible??
But also to clarify, I’m not some headphone elitist or anything, but Haley’s been listening to music on these awful like $5 quality earphones that absolutely do not layer sound and makes everything just sound generally flat and grainy. Simply, it’s been a while since she’s been able to experience music closer to how it was intended to sound.
Lots of the songs she’s listening to with me here are songs that have lots of meaning to us. We’ve listened to them countless times through depression and anger and confusion, we’ve soothed ourselves and shared our love for what role this music has played in our relationship. I’m sorry if you consider us enjoying music with better than $5 headphones a terrible statement. But for us, it means a lot.
Also the headphones mean a lot to me too because they’re a gift from my older sister whom I’ve only recently really started reconnecting with after all the events of my childhood in which there was a glaring distance between all us siblings.
Maybe anon thought Jude was implying that beats headphones made music sound better, which she was not, but either way
The comment was really uncalled for, an unnecessarily shoving yer opinions where they shouldn’t go (not to mention it’s accusatory )will forever boggle my mind
Like just ???
Jude just made a short post of how I’m enjoying some music using her beats headphones, and it didn’t matter to anon what the post was actually about: I’m enjoying music. But that it had the word “beats headphones” and they immediately wanted to pick at that.
But it possibly might be a misunderstanding altogether, but I guess what Jude and I are really upset about was that anon didn’t even bother to ATTEMPT to understand what the post meant. And even more than even if you disagree, to go out of your way to shame someone else for enjoying something like the beats product, was that really necessary.
I’m working on a commission, and Jude looks over and points out that it looks off and then ” I know exactly what that reminds me of”.
She then flips through like 26 pages of a manga to just find me this image lD
(the top one is the sketch of my commission and the bottom one is a crop from the manga, Maple Love by Otsu Hiyori)
doctorfantasy said: Sorry to intrude this is probably none of my buisness i just would like to try and help the situation a bit.. Are you living with your mom or is it more so your mom living with you? Because if its the second than you could and should kick her out if its more your house.. But if its hers you should get out ASAP. And i dont like disrespecting elders kinda thing but this whole situation with your mom seems (mind my language im sorry) like bullshit. You should tell her off and express your feelings.
(Continued) or at least prove to her that you are a responsible capable human being but do NOT just standby and let her try to baby and mistreat you and your girlfriend. You are an adult and im sure that is in some way a bit of harassment or something idk but i dont think its right for her (no matter if she thinks youre incapable or not) to try and stay by your side all the time if you dont want it and you dont authorize it she has no right to do such things so for your own good you should speak
(Continued more ((i ramble sorry)))speak to your mother about your feelings. Tell her what she is doing and what she has been doing is wrong and that you are an adult wether she believes it or not you are capable and responsible and you have a loving companion to help you if you arent capable enough. Speak your mind wether she likes it or not and dont worry about how she will think of you for it. Be as expressive and free as you want. Dont let her keep you tied down like that..
Oh gosh, yeah, unfortunately things are super complicated, so I’ll do my best to give a … somewhat short explanation. In a nutshell I moved in with her to go to college (since she was closer) and had not lived with her at all my entire life. Things didn’t work out because of her p much and I convinced her to buy a house out of state where I’d look after it until she retires (I can’t just leave her without a reason because she is actually crazy. Like seriously crazy. Not kidding, not even exaggerating). You see, I’m not so tied up with her or anything, but the fact that she keeps grudges and not only does she keep grudges, she spreads them. She used to call my grandma a witch, one of the most loved people I’ve known with the fewest enemies. She’s held a grudge against my dad for over 20 years now and it hasn’t lessened in intensity at all. In fact, she’s convinced all of her friends that he’s some awful guy. The worst part though? She won’t leave you alone. She calls up my dad for help, badgers him practically until he does her favors. She uses you, she leeches off of you unless you pretty much disappear. So as things stand, my biggest problem is that it will take me at least half a year to move away because anything too sudden can cause a lot of trouble.
My mom is in every way delusional. She doesn’t believe that depression is a real issue and blames it on those who are depressed for being mentally weak. She doesn’t believe that anxiety goes anywhere beyond general nervousness. She ‘supports’ gays not because she believes it deserves support, but because she feels it makes her a great person for saying she does. Her opinion of me will not change and if it somehow does, it’s because she believes her efforts have molded me into a different person.
I wish things were simpler, but I’ve tried literally everything people have suggested me over these last few years. Haley and I keep working closer to being able to be away and free without having her hanging onto us despite all the dead ends we’ve hit regarding my mom. It’s a long difficult path, but it’s one we’re stuck on for the time being.
But thank you for the sentiments, we certainly won’t be giving up, just using every ounce of tact we can afford haha.
This is important //flails
Wip of a reference sheet I want to make for Dagmar and Aravis
(I need to change some of the design details digitally )
But yayy our babies
Dagmar belongs to Jude
xaleiv said: Oh dang are you serious? Thats really upsetting D:> are you alright?
Okay, this is probably going to get long, so I’ll put it under a cut.
Hnn ; n ; poor bby.
But yeah. Before when Jude told me these things about her mom, like it never really clicked, like I believed it but I never knew just how ACCURATE Jude was when she told me that her mom was just really crazy.
Although this visit was like kinda stressful cause her mom was there, at least I could understand better the weight behind my gf’s words when she tells me about her childhood.
Legit hell :I
Hh ;m; I just hope Jude can get away and be much happier soon, like this year soon lD
Ugh if I didn’t have to go to college for a year I just kidnap Jude away and we can find a nice apartment together away from the psycho.
walrushit said: 5 random things about yourself then pass it to 10 of your favourite followers (◡‿◡✿)
YOU KNOW WHAT’S SOMETHING ABOUT ME?? I’M SEVERELY UPSET THAT WE HAVE HAD NEARLY A MONTH TOGETHER AND BARELY EVEN HAD ANY ALONE TIME OKAY. I DEFINITELY WANT TO DO REALLY GAY THINGS WITH YOU, BUT NO, NOPE, WE CAN’T EVEN LAY IN THE SAME BED TOGETHER WITHOUT MY MOM FLIPPING HER SHIT. ALSO WHY IS SHE LIKE ABSOLUTE EAGLE EYE WITH US, LIKE CAN U PLEASE GIVE US SOME SPACE WE’RE NOT GONNA DO THE NASTIES IF THAT’S A NO-NO BUT CAN WE AT LEAST HOLD HANDS WITHOUT YOU STARING AT US LIKE WE’RE STAINS ON THE CARPET? IT’S LIKE SHE SENSES OUR SAPPHIC AURAS OR SOMETHING AND IT’S WACKING OUT HER POSITIVE VORTEX ENERGY SHIT THAT SHE BELIEVES IN. Btw I don’t hate on people who believe in energies, but just my mom cause she’s legit crazy.
Anyways I’m sure that includes five things or close enough, I tag all my friends. ALL OF YOU. who consider yourselves my friends. *eyes the masses* It’s the ultimate test *shot* jkjk but seriously just do it if you want, avoid it if that’s your thing.
Reason for me not posting much or having an online presence these days //sob
Jude’s mom kinda just…saps the life and creative energy out of you
And just you have a constant 35% depression and on bad days it probably goes up to 60% depression
(For me that is, for Jude it’s probably 9000000% depression cause she had to deal with this mom bullshit for all her life)
lD anyways we’re still alright tho, dealing with the devil
I sad that I’m going home next week but oh well
At least Jude is planning on moving out within a year , away from the crazy bitch lD
THATS LIFE UPDATE FOR YOU HAHHA
commission for harmonydissonance on da
did more experimental painting with this commish, and I think I really like painting this way, so will try to do it this way for a while !
Anonymous said: Hello! I wanted to thank you so much for the commissions you gave me at AX!!! I wasn't there personally, you met my friends (the girl dressed in the OFF Cosplay) and she said you were so very nice ; u ; and I just can't thank you enough for the free print of Sailor Moon you gave me too! You have no idea how much those drawings meant ; o ;!!
ohmygosh ;w; I’m so happy that you liked it that much!!
haha your friend was also super nice and cute <3
We finally made our left over prints from AX available on my storenvy!
and also, the Legend of Zelda one I’m re-ordering as well, cause I only have six left from con.
anyways, it’ll be super great if some of you decide to buy some of our prints and support us! ; ^ ;
oh and also
for those living in USA and Canada shipping is relatively alright (free for the stickers actually and about $5 for prints)
but for those who live everywhere else shipping gets pricey, ESPECIALLY for prints, so I’ll add in like a free sketch or drawing of some sorts for those who have to pay $14 for shipping (yeah…like when I ship to Netherlands, the shipping is $15 basically, Dx so sorry that it’s so expensive!)
But overall we’re selling the prints rather cheaply to match our con prices at $10 a piece
My friends’ oc’s are so fun to draw
The first two are of Kid Ocean, franny’s character. And the third one is ms.delicious/pink lightning’s ghoul babe
IM LAUGHING SO HARD JESUS CHRIST
one my best friends Franny said she’ll draw me something so I was like omg draw me and Jude being gays
And she drew me this
FUCK I CANT BREATHE